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Who Do you Love More? x Get it Now

The album “Who Do You Love More?”, featuring Chill Moody x Beano x Hank McCoy – all three from Philly, dropped on February 4th on Itunes and on Google play.  I must admit…I was highly anticipating this album, especially since hearing “Last Night in Town” on Sound Cloud via Chill Moody’s page.  When I got home on Tuesday I immediately went online to cop the album and it’s what I expected and more!  Chill Moody did his thing, and Beano….ladies if y’all don’t know…he can sang!  Hank McCoy produced the dope beats for the songs on the album.

The collaboration amongst these three is pretty amazing, ever since I downloaded the album yesterday, it’s pretty much been on repeat and each track has it’s own flavor and catchy lyrics.  Like I said, after hearing “Last Night in Town” on sound cloud, they had me and I knew that I had to cop the album.  And there were a few other tracks that caught my attention, starting with “Right Under My Nose”, lol I did not expect what was coming at the end of that song…I had to go back and listen to it again. The ending really caught me off guard but it all makes sense, you have to hear the whole song to understand but the title says it all!  The hook on the song “What’s for Breakfast” is one my faves…like I said that dude named Beano can really sang!

I’m not going to review every single track, however the interlude “Money Coming Down” is dope…I wish it was a little longer, but it runs right into “BSGTBPT”, I have no idea what the title of this song means but the track is hot.  This album “Who Do you Love More?” is filled with songs dealing with various stages and types of relationships, break ups, and more. If you think that you’re missing out because you haven’t heard what’s on this album, then you are.  Visit itunes now to download the album or you can look it up on Google Play for Android phone users. It was #27 on the itunes hip hop chart the day that is dropped and I haven’t heard any complaints, just nice things from everyone who has the album. It’s under $10 and it’s definitely worth the buy…you won’t be disappointed.

One more thing…this Friday, these fellas, Chill Moody x Beano x Hank McCoy, will be performing this album live at the Hard Rock Cafe in Center City, Philadelphia.  This is a red carpet event, so if you’re going…dress for the affair.  They have a limited number of VIP tickets available along with general admission. If you love the album and want to see the live performance, get your tickets to go to the Hard Rock Cafe, for this Friday, February 7th doors open at 8:00 p.m.

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Freedom in a New Light


Changes and transitions in life can throw us off, especially when they are unexpected, but you never know what God is up to when they occur.  The older we become, the more difficult it becomes to adapt to major sudden changes in our lives.  Although it can be hard to face change…don’t knock it because it could be a good thing….a very good thing.  People come and go, jobs change, living situations change, money changes, and friends may even change….but if you’re ever looking for something constant, God is.

We cannot control the outside forces that push us to transition into another place in life, however can do have control over how we react to it and whether or not we grow from it.  We cannot even control the reactions of the  people in our lives that may be faced with the same situation and pressure and that can reveal the true contents of the people/ person that we may be around.  We don’t always understand the “why?” or reason things happen…but they do…and if we stay still long enough and remain calm, the reason “why” may be revealed to us.

If I’m talking about changes and transitions so much, then why did I entitle this post “freedom in  a new light?”  Well, because the shifting of people, places, and things that can happen during major life changes can actually bring about a new freedom and light in our lives.  I’ve talked about it before…about 7 months ago I split up with the father of my child.  He refused to allow me to get mines and our daughter’s belongings on numerous occasions.  At first, I admit it set me off…mostly because he doesn’t even provide for her…but God.   He actually ended up trashing and destroying 96% of mines and my daughter’s belongings, but that is okay.  I’m no fool, I prepared for that moment without believing that it would happen.  I began replacing my daughter’s toys, clothing, and shoes before the occurrence.  As for myself, I lost so much weight in the transition that I wouldn’t have been able to fit most of my old clothing anyhow.  However, I was able to retrieve important documents, my daughter’s favorite tutu’s, and my designer bags before he had a chance to trash that.

Yes, this sounds horrible and low down dirty for a person to do, but it was for my good.  I didn’t need that stuff and the more I wasn’t around, the more I didn’t desire that “stuff.”  All of that “stuff” contained old memories that were tossed into the trash, I don’t need them.  I don’t need a daily reminder of how poorly I was treated by someone I devoted myself to and trusted for years.  I am not bashing the individual, I am just saying that through all of that and getting past the emotions of anger and sadness has allowed me to have a freedom in a new light.  Through it all, God kept me.  There is no other way to put it.  The change happened, major life transitions were into place, and I had to remain calm.  Yes, I cried often, very often…but after the tears I did see the new light.  The new light of happiness, freedom, and life that was waiting for me.  I didn’t snap or lash out against the individual, and even to this day I don’t.  I’ve forgiven and now I move on.  I could not control how he reacted to me or individuals nearby, but I could control my emotions and reactions. 

If I didn’t control my emotions or reactions, I’d be out of a job, would have let down my child, and disappointed family and friends.  I was able to remain so calm, that my father had to call me one day and ask “how are you doing with all of this?”  The question caught me off guard, because I just put my daughter as my responsibility ahead of how I was feeling.  She has needs and she has a mommy and loving family that meets them.  I didn’t think twice about my obligations or leaving them and I’m so glad I didn’t.  No matter what comes your way…it’s gonna come, just be conscious of your reaction to life’s events and happenings and trust God.  Always remain calm, peace will get you farther than anger.  Operating off of anger can be poisonous and set you back farther than what you desire.  Always be mindful of how you carry yourself and react around others.  Yes cry, yes scream, yes yell, yes vent to loved ones…but there is a time and a place to do that.  Hey, even get counseling if you need to.  I thought about it once…but when they say time heals all wounds….it’s kind of true, trusting God and allowing time to take it’s course can help.

If you look into my eyes now, you won’t find tears, because they have turned into strength and determination to build a better future for my family.  Sadness was apart of my life at one point, but today I smile and sing, because God has brought me this far and I am truly grateful.  I may not have all the material wealth that I’d like to possess, but I am content with what God has blessed me with and to me, that is living.  What God has blessed me with, I will no longer sit on or just look at idly…but I’m pounding the pavement and have raised a level up to aggressive ambition….if I fail, then so what….doesn’t mean that I’ll give up.  What is success without knowing what failure is?  Failure is not my end.  This new freedom and light of understanding that I posses gives me the strength to carry on knowing that God is with me always.


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From Overload to Overcome


There used to be a time when I would look at you with my eyes filled with light a glow.  No one in the world couldn’t tell me that you really weren’t the man I know.  Two sides…two sides to every story and everyone has a past.  But a past filled with skeletons and deceit, for the time I spent with you, I wish I had a receipt.   A receipt to calculate the time and money spent into building a lifetime, a lifetime to only last a short time.  A short time lived with you was our time.  And still…you planned to rid me without a care.  I was in the way, of a place to me so far away.  But that so far away, was very close to home…closer than I knew.  I didn’t know how low of a thing you would do, and not to care who went down with you.  But this I say to you…time is lost and there is love lost.  But the love lost was a fabrication of an unreal situation.  Or rather, I wish it was unreal. 


With the truth exposed and lies to unfold were hard to deal.  I’ve lost many tears and time trying to figure this out in my mind.  But after six months, I’ve come to this conclusion.  Everything happens for a reason and some good times are only for a season.  Our season ended, see what you and your unsuperhero sidekick meant for my harm, God only turned it around for my good.  For so long I wanted to curse the ground you walked on and those who raised you, for being lower than a man.  But…I find that a waste of time and useless initiative to spend my energy.  This energy that I have is daily God given and I refuse to reuse and waste it on you.  The truth and stories untold, themselves have unfolded.  I do not blame anyone, instead, I thank them.  Because this entire experience has set me on the right track, because baby I’m back. 


If I thought I was I was on a sabatacle before, then now I’ve been reborn.  Redone and better than what you knew.  So to you I say, do what you do…because me and my babygirl boo are fine.  With Jesus on our side and the loves of the lives of loved ones around, we are kept in line.  Their strength has strengthened me beyond what you can compare.  If you thought the hulk was dangerous, then you don’t want to see what kind of green I turn, I’m lean and I don’t mean thin.  Because with all the drama and the places I’ve been, I’ve learned to cut what shouldn’t make the cut and wisdom gained is wisdom sustained.  So that bench…it’s an empty bench and that’s cool because I’m single and ready to network and mingle…for my future goals that is.


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Changes in the forecast


Some people last in our lives…..and others disappear when their season is coming to a close. We cannot predict the future, nor can we make certain relationships last. When the expiration date appears, it is time to move on.

When it comes to relationships….we wonder if there was something different we could’ve done to avoid the split. Whether it be a friendship, intimate, or casual relationship, we always want to make it to work. Sometimes, we replay the events in a relationship that has ended to see if we could have done something different or if it was solely our fault.

The entire process can be complicated, however it is healthy to move forward in life. There is nothing healthy about moping around in the past. The future is always ahead of us and the present is here. So there is no day like today to make a step forward in a positive direction.

If a step in a positive direction constitutes mending the broken relationship, then do so with care. If mending the broken relationship is not an option, then forgive and move forward. No matter how badly you were hurt by the other party, you cannot truly move forward until you let go of the past. Letting go can be a difficult concept to grasp, however it is necessary.

Never force yourself to feel something that isn’t genuine. Time can help heal your wounds and you will not fully move on until you are both emotionally and mentally ready to move on and healed. So take your time and make a move in a positive direction every day. There is no need to be the antagonist of your own life….you have a full life to live and more to give.

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Romance is NOT dead


In a world where one night stands and three somes are ideal, I do believe that romance still exists. I still believe in a man opening the door for a woman and catering to her every need as she takes care of her man as well. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that women cannot do this, I am simply stating that it is a sweet and endearing gesture for a gentlemen to perform these acts for his lady.

Don’t think I am super old fashioned in this mindset, because I still believe in a woman being educated and independently financial. Not to put a man down, but because we can and we are more than capable to hold down our own forts.

However, all I am saying is that I still believe in romance and romantic gestures such as flowers, spontaneous outings, and sharing desert. These actions add more meaning to life than just the typical one night stand, or “damn!” after walking by a dude, or a woman viewing a man as a one night object.

These are just my thoughts and ramblings and I am not saying that one side is right or wrong. I just believe in romance and I like to be spoiled!!!! And I would do the same as well. To me….romance adds more meaning and anticipation to a relationship.


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