I am me, unapologetic and fully confident. I must admit…it took me awhile to get to this point. For the longest, I thought that I had everything to prove to everyone else. I thought I had to be considered the skinniest, prettiest, and every other -est by everybody else. In spending sometime by myself and taking the time to pursue those dreams closest to my heart…I simply realize that everybody’s else’s thoughts about me are not the absolute. I can only be me…and truly that is the best way to be.
I’ve got blemishes, stretchmarks, bruises, scars…you name the flaw and I probably have it somewhere lol. I am by no means perfect and I love that about myself! I’ve finally gotten to a point where I accept and love who I am, who God made me to be. My flaws aren’t just on the inside, they are on the inside as well and I am asking God to help me with those as well. I’m not perfect and I own that and it took me a long time to get to this place in life. There is no need for me to be content with being fake or unreal, I am who I am and I love whom God made me to be.
Who am I? Just me lol. A young college educated mother of one, who is a blogger, artsy, and ambitious. While this Queen sits on her throne and awaits her King…she won’t be moping around. Instead, she’ll be loving who God made her to be, raising her princess, and working. I don’t know why it took me so long, but I truly thank God for this confidence, I am me all day long and I love it! I accept my flaws and appreciate the good that I have to offer. I know I wrote an entire post about flaws…but with everyone talking about what is always perfect…I just thought I’d be different and discuss what’s not so perfect….beginning with me and that is okay. Because what isn’t perfect is real just as much as what is perfection can be real. There’s so much to me and I am exploring it all!
Take a look in the mirror and smile and love whom God made you to be. Now you see the you that everyone else loves so much! Accept your flaws because they are real and make you uniquely you. No one else can have your flaw or your perfection because God made them especially for you! Which is beyond beautiful.
I wouldn’t change a thing about being a mother, I absolutely love my child and she brightens my day in ways that I didn’t think were possible! She is truly a gift from God and every sacrifice that I make on her behalf is worth it! My daughter is sweet, adventurous, outspoken and shy lol, intelligent, caring, a sponge, and so much more! Being a mom is the highest position that I’ve held yet. I am responsible for protecting this little life and providing her the opportunities that she deserves! But the hardest part of it all is that I’m a single mom….
Like I said before, I would change nothing about being a mother because I love my child. However, it can be difficult and the pressure can be intense at times. The one thing that brings me to tears is seeing my child sick. Even with a simple fever…maybe it’s because I’m a first time mom but this is me. My daughters health and well being is of the utmost importance to me. Ugh….and maybe I’m overreacting a bit, but I love my child and only want the best for her.
Well….there it is….a piece from my heart to your eyes….thanks for stopping by and if you can relate….drop a line below.
Happy New Year’s everyone! It’s 2014 already and I’m pretty sure that we’ve all made our New Year’s resolutions for the upcoming year and have probably broken them by now. When 2014 came this year…I failed to make any New Year’s resolutions because I know that I will not keep them. I break them every year along with everyone else, so I’ve given up on making those resolutions.
I can tell you this, this year I plan to live and follow my dreams. Whether success comes my way or if I’m hit with an immediate failure, I’m going to get back up and live out the dreams that I’ve had for so long. 2013 was a year of major changes for me. My daughter and I went through so many rough transitions, but with the love and help from God, family, and friends, we are stronger than we once were. 2014 is a year of untapped opportunities that I plan to take part in full force!
Everyday I am changing, re-evaluating, refocusing, and evolving myself. If anything, 2014 is my year of opportunities. As opportunities for growth present themselves, I am willing to take on the challenge and pursue them. There’s no reason for me to be in the same place in 2015. 2014….I am looking forward to you….and although I do not have a definite resolution in place….I am declaring that this is my year of growth and taking advantage of opportunities as they arise without fear. And that is something that I’m working on everyday!
How I spent my New Year’s: Low key, with a cold and plenty of treats to hold me over….
This yummy chicken penne pasta from a local Italian grocer…yummmmmmmm!!!!!!!
This was my only glass…it’s sweet but strong…lasted me about two weeks!
That’s how I spent my New Year’s this year, in the house and cozy under a blanket while watching New Year’s Rockin’ Eve and more on T.V. How did you spend New Year’s? Drop a line below and let me know!
….As always…thanks for stopping by…
Recently, I had a situation at home where my daughter wasn’t feeling well and after a long night, I decided to take her to the hospital. If there’s one thing I do not like, it’s seeing my child in the hospital, no parent wants that for their child. However, I do thank God for the doctors that help her. My daughter has reactive airway disease a.k.a. asthma…they say it’s environmental, but I think it’s hereditary as well. She had issues with her breathing and when the in home nebulizer treatments didn’t seem to be enough anymore, I immediately took my child to be seen. This isn’t easy, it is very overwhelming for me to see my child on a hospital bed. With taking her to the hospital, there are the lost hours at work and my income is what supports us….but what it boils down is that money will come and go…but my daughter…she is irreplaceable. Her life and well being are far more superior than anything going on around me. She puts a smile on my face everyday! But still…as a single parent…this all can be too overwhelming to handle alone…my art….is a vision on paper describing my internal thoughts and feelings….
At first I created this by doing a quick sketch and using colored pencil to fill in everything…
Then I wanted to see more blending of the medium so I wet a paintbrush a ran it across the drawing in sections to allow more blending. On the lips “Emergency Dial 911” is written…the lips are closed because when I see my child suffer, I do cry and wonder why…it hurts me every time we need to make a hospital visit…when this happens I don’t make a big deal out of it…I cry…get myself together and do what needs to be done. Emergency 911…there was an emergency that needed to addressed and as mom first, I addressed it immediately.
Throughout the hair, you will see different adjectives written…on the left is my reality and on the right is what I’m hoping for my future.
Close up of the lips…I love the way you can see the imprints from where I erased and repositioned the letters.
As you can see there is a lot going on…yeah there was a visit to the hospital…but on a daily basis, there are so many thoughts, feelings, emotions, and facts that I deal with. What it all comes down is that being a mom is my most important role, because there is a precious and intuitive little life that depends on me…and I don’t plan on letting her down.
Here’s my sketch and the story behind it…as always…thanks for stopping by…
This past Sunday baby girl and I went to the house of God….and we enjoyed ourselves! I am truly blessed by the services and the ministry!
….on our way to church baby girl was trying to hide behind me in her fabulous tutu!
Later on baby girl decided to cooperate and show off her many happy faces! She was decked out in a tutu and pretty in purple! Showing off her pearly whites here!
Here I am in my little black dress that I fell in love with! Catching selfies in the mirror!
Here’s one more selfie for the road while baby girl jumps in the shot!
I don’t have to dress up for church….but I choose to….why not enjoy life while I am living and able to. There are somethings in life we need to wait for, but I don’t believe that life is all about waiting….it’s about living and loving every moment. Whatever you’re doing right now, choose to live and love in the process!
Shoes: Calvin Klein
Bag: Steve Madden
Head to toe: Childrens Place
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