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Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas 🙂 Thank you all for taking the time to stop by my blog and show support by reading my posts, subscribing, liking my posts, commenting on them, and re-blogging! I really appreciate you all and want to take the time out to say thank you and stay tuned…I have some big things planned for the New Year! God Bless you all and enjoy this day with your loved ones!

Macy’s for the Holidays!

This year, just like every year…baby girl and I went to Macy’s in Center City Philadelphia to enjoy the light show!!!  The show was spectacular just like every year and this year, my daughter was truly able to enjoy the show and be mesmerized by it.  Every time we walk into Macy’s now, she’s looking for the light show!  Although we had a great time…this year’s experience at the light show was a little different!

To begin with…Macy’s was packed with guests who were readily anticipating the start of the show….

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And that’s only the first floor….the second and third floors were just as packed with guests….

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All I can say is that I’ve never seen Macy’s this filled with guests over their light show.  Many blame it on the fact that they now have scheduled times every two hours for the show, as opposed to doing it every hour or half hour.  Whatever the case, the show must go on and it sure did!

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Baby girl was focused on the show and would not move from her spot!

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Although the event was hectic and overcrowded…it was well worth it for this beautiful, intelligent, funny, kind, and strong baby girl…

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As always…thanks for stopping by and Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanzaa, and Happy New Year to you and your family 🙂

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Silence x Emergency x Dial 911

Recently, I had a situation at home where my daughter wasn’t feeling well and after a long night, I decided to take her to the hospital.  If there’s one thing I do not like, it’s seeing my child in the hospital, no parent wants that for their child.  However, I do thank God for the doctors that help her.  My daughter has reactive airway disease a.k.a. asthma…they say it’s environmental, but I think it’s hereditary as well.  She had issues with her breathing and when the in home nebulizer treatments didn’t seem to be enough anymore, I immediately took my child to be seen.  This isn’t easy, it is very overwhelming for me to see my child on a hospital bed.  With taking her to the hospital, there are the lost hours at work and my income is what supports us….but what it boils down is that money will come and go…but my daughter…she is irreplaceable.  Her life and well being are far more superior than anything going on around me.  She puts a smile on my face everyday!  But still…as a single parent…this all can be too overwhelming to handle alone…my art….is a vision on paper describing my internal thoughts and feelings….

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At first I created this by doing a quick sketch and using colored pencil to fill in everything…

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Then I wanted to see more blending of the medium so I wet a paintbrush a ran it across the drawing in sections to allow more blending.  On the lips “Emergency Dial 911” is written…the lips are closed because when I see my child suffer, I do cry and wonder why…it hurts me every time we need to make a hospital visit…when this happens I don’t make a big deal out of it…I cry…get myself together and do what needs to be done.  Emergency 911…there was an emergency that needed to addressed and as mom first, I addressed it immediately.

Throughout the hair, you will see different adjectives written…on the left is my reality and on the right is what I’m hoping for my future.

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Close up of the lips…I love the way you can see the imprints from where I erased and repositioned the letters.

As you can see there is a lot going on…yeah there was a visit to the hospital…but on a daily basis, there are so many thoughts, feelings, emotions, and facts that I deal with.  What it all comes down is that being a mom is my most important role, because there is a precious and intuitive little life that depends on me…and I don’t plan on letting her down.

Here’s my sketch and the story behind it…as always…thanks for stopping by…

 

It’s a Turkey Day Recap!!!

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This year on Thanksgiving, I just wanted to stay in my sweats and relax all day.  It’s funny because this is the first time that I’ve felt that way, but it’s also the first time that I’ve had to care for a child full time and work full time…..and it is exhausting.  Anyhow, I did make it out to eat with family and I am glad that I did!  I looked forward to stuffing my face around the clock on Thanksgiving day and I did just that without any guilt….but I think I will begin my work out program soon!  I had plenty to eat with deserts and all 🙂

The only thing different about Thanksgiving this year was the fact that we went shopping after dinner.  The Black Friday shopping pressure was on early this year!  I stopped by a few places, but my focus was to get my daughter some gifts for Christmas while they were on sale.  Anything that wasn’t on sale…let’s put it this way, I can wait until it does go on sale!  While I’m looking intensely through the store, she found a way to entertain herself…

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A toy that was built into the racks inside of a children’s store.  I loved it at first, however my issue is that when I’m ready to move to another aisle, it’s difficult for me to keep an eye on her.  As you can imagine, with any engaged toddler, it was a struggle to move her along…and especially out of the store!

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Black Friday shopping did get a little interesting, Best Buy opened it’s doors around 5 or 6 pm and this was the line wrapped around the store after 7:00 p.m.  There was a security officer standing at the door way as well, I have no idea what was so major…but the people waited outside until it was their turn to go into the store.

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At the end of the day…Thanksgiving is not about consuming excessive amounts of turkey or participating in an early shopping trip…rather it’s about giving thanks.  I am thankful to God for this smart, fun loving, goofy, and beautiful baby girl and all of my family and friends 🙂

 

As always…thanks for stopping by…

 

Happy Thanksgiving from my Family to Yours!

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(My daughter and I)

There is so much to give thanks for this year!  God has been beyond amazing to my family and I.  As I reflect on this past year…words cannot explain how overwhelmed I am with thanks.  I don’t just give thanks one day a year because it is thanksgiving…I give thanks to God everyday for waking up, being in good health, having a healthy and brilliant child, and so much more.  

This past year has been a trying one…every day hasn’t been easy, I’ve seen more struggle than easy days, but that is okay.  It’s apart of my destiny and where I’m going.  I don’t regret anything, I’ve simply learned and now I move forward.  Back in May of this year, I was in a position where I had to leave the father of my child.  It was a situation where mines and her life depended on it.  I didn’t want to go, I wanted to see if we could work it out, but that would not have been healthy for myself nor my child.  As the spring and summer months went by, I was filled with agony as I walked around with a smile on my face.  Occasionally, I would have a break down, but God always picked me back up.  I didn’t understand why everything had to happen the way it did.

Because of that situation, I was angry at God for a period.  I didn’t want to admit it, but I was.  I didn’t know how to pray for a season…I was lost.  But through it all, God kept His hands on me and my family continuously gave me their undying love and support.  It was a very difficult transition and hard to process it all.  It wasn’t overnight, that’s for sure.  Over the summer God took the time to open my eyes to a lot that I did not realize about the father of my child.  Sheesh…there was a lot.  I thank God for the revelation!!!  There were questions that her father couldn’t answer me with a straight face…and that was just plain old sad.  But it’s cool, because what the enemy meant for my harm, God meant it for my good 🙂

Over the summer, what kept me sane was writing blog posts while traveling on the train to work.  It really helped me to keep my mind off the foolishness while I was healing.  The problems that I had with my daughter’s father didn’t just begin in May, they were happening for about a year.  From explosive arguments to worse….yes worse… I was not raised in a household where”the worse” was okay. While being with the father of my child, I was at my lowest point and I couldn’t see it, but my family could, but I didn’t listen, God had to show me for Himself. But…like I said…what the devil meant for my harm…God meant it for my good!

Through all the transitions, I struggled financially with a lack of financial support from my the father of my child.  As well as…I am the one who has her 90% of the time…except when she goes to daycare or one of my parents graciously steps in and takes her for a night over.  It has been tough.  I do get worn out, I am still young and want to go out…but this is the way it is right now.  I love my child dearly and there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for her, trust and believe that!!!!  I’ve gone broke just seeing that she has all she needs and some of her wants.  She doesn’t lack a thing and I thank God!!!  It’s tough when all the financial and emotional responsibility is on one parent…but when the other parent is highly selfish, doesn’t show up to see his child on numerous occasions, doesn’t inquire about their child often, harasses the other parent instead, and doesn’t provide financially—I let it build me up to make me stronger, because I know that God is with me.  Because what the devil meant for harm….yep you said it- God meant it for my good. 

I don’t look back and regret a thing!  It happened and I’ve grown…there’s no point in looking back.  I’m moving forward right now and that’s all that matters for my daughter’s and I future!

As you can see, I have lots to give thanks for!!!- Life, health, strength, a career, my beautifully active daughter, family, creativity, sanity, peace of mind, and soooo much more!  So on this thanksgiving, don’t focus on what you do not have, but rather keep an eye on all of your blessings that surround you daily. 

As always…thanks for stopping by…

And a Happy Thanksgiving from my family to yours!!!!